so i found my sister on facebook a few weeks ago and sent her a message asking if her last name used to be durst. almost 3 weeks later, and she hasn't replied. i know this might sound stalkerish, but i sent her first husband a message on facebook a few days ago. he replied back yesterday and added me as a friend. he said he didn't know why she has ignored me and my family. i asked a few more questions about my sister, but didn't find out too many juicy details like i was hoping for. he then said that he would see me at my brother's wedding in july. WHAT?! i didn't expect to hear that! part of me wants to find out the details about the wedding and show up, but i would hate to cause drama, but i have every right to be there. i'm guessing shawn wouldn't recognize me since it's been 9 years since i've last seen him, but heather's seen my picture since then. i just want some answers, some closure, something that will keep me from trying anymore. i'm dealing with this a lot better than i used to, but i still wonder why i'm getting this treatment.
isn't it weird how people, who were at one time, some of your closest friends and then for no reason just stop calling you or stopping by to say hi? it almost gets depressing sometimes. last night i saw one of my good college friends pull into the dorm parking lot. i figured he would have stopped by to say hi to me like he used to, but he didn't. the only conculsion that i have come to is that he has wanted to be more than just friends with me during our entire friendship. now that i think about it, whenever i have a bf, he shys away. i don't know if i have been a tease all along or what and he's just tired of it. people thought that we should date, but i didn't want to lose his friendship. the other thing was, that he loved to party and i thought he would get bored with me since i don't like to as much as him. he went to a wedding with me about 4 months ago and stayed the night at my house and i could tell he wanted to kiss me, but i didn't want that. i dunno if that has just made things awkward. i confronted him before about why he stays away when i'm seeing a guy and he just says he doesn't want to interfere and cause conflict. or is it becuz he doesn't want to see me with another guy?? ugh...so frustrating!
Monday, 11 May 2009
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